It’s been over a year since I started this blog, and about a year from all the long drawn-out breaking up with MM (if there was an easy way to change his nickname in all posts, I would). I look back and wonder how I tolerated being so unhappy, so stressed. But it’s no longer relevant; I have moved onwards and upwards.
It has been such a surprise to be dating Mr Connection. I didn’t think I was ready for such a healthy relationship. Every time I feel cautious, we communicate and I dive in further. It’s not perfect, we’ve each got flaws but I feel we accept each other for the most part. We’re grown-ups *cough* and can make our own choices and decisions… and choose independence, tolerance, cooperation and love.
Recent developments mean that out individual visions of a future together are more in alignment. However, it’s still early days so there’s no hurry. We still will keep dating and see how it all goes and take it a step at a time. We can’t base our relationship on fantasies of the future. Things change. But I’m feeling much happier being in a relationship that has long-term potential. Right now I don’t mind what the outcome is, but it’s much easier for me emotionally to put energy into possibilities.
I’m still stuck on job-hunting though. I really need to get some cash flow happening so I’ll be stepping up my endeavours to score some work. I know I can do it…