My friends and family have been checking in with me. Mum calls almost everyday, sometimes twice. It is nice to feel such supporting loving people around me who accept me as I am.
The person I need to talk with is away and we probably won’t be able to have a real conversation until Wednesday or Thursday. An awkward 15 mins on the phone last night was pretty unsatisfactory. I don’t really know what’s been going on for him, although I suspect it’s similar to how I’m feeling.
But because I need to clear it all up with him, I can’t write publicly about it. I’m waiting again for more information. I’ve got a couple of draft posts waiting because it helps for me to write, though I don’t know if they’ll ever be published.
One thing that I’ve realised is that in the last 11 months (and longer), although not much has happened outwardly, a LOT has been happening for me below-the-surface. I’ve finally drawn-a-line-in-the-sand. I’ve found an inner strength and feel that whatever happens, I will be OK.
P.S. If you need a little help in finding your inner strength, you can always turn to Chuck Norris.
P.P.S. I’m only slightly making fun. I think it’s great that all kinds of people are helping themselves and others and understand that he’s overcome a lot of obstacles and very inspirational [which is *ahem* something I aspire to]. It’s just I find the name (Chuck) amusing. And the moustache 🙂